is it a dream or it a lie

2004-11-03T23:52:00.000-08:00

haiz....darling i relli miss u. i actually dun wanna go over sea wan but my father dont let.he say that if i dont go i mus pay money then i say ok he start to fever(hua siao).relli sian here i hope to see u but i cant.bu yong jing i think at least i still have your pic i spent the whole night thinking of u loooking at pic when the breez touching my face my eyes started to turn red but i nv drop any of my tear cause u r a tear in my eye i dont wish to lose u....

SeAsIcK

2004-11-03T20:05:00.000-08:00

morning cant wake up i sleep in the bed until 12 then i wonder around in the ship....very long nv see my lao po le may be not very long is cause nv see my lao po it feel like having three autum n jus dunno why counting the day feeling like counting the year ='<>

2004-10-25T20:43:00.000-07:00

风到这里就思念粘住过客的思念
雨到了这里粘成线
缠着我们留恋人世间
你在身边就是缘
缘分写在三寸石上面
爱有万分之一天宁愿我就葬在这一天
圈圈园园圈圈甜甜粘粘甜甜的我深深看你的脸
想起的温柔满脸的温柔的脸
不懂爱恨情仇颠倒的我们
都以为相爱就像风云的善变
相信那一天抵过永远
在这一刹那冻结那时间
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们
还以为殉情只是古老的传言
你走得有多痛痛有多浓
当梦被埋在江南烟雨中心碎了才懂

我不想心碎了才懂
我会在冻结那时间
爱护我和你的缘分
看这你满脸温柔的脸
轻轻的讲进你的耳朵
温柔不是古老的传言
希望能给你我的温柔
让我们活在冻结的世界

2004-10-21T21:42:00.000-07:00

The cool night breeze
Rustles through my hair
As up at the cloudy night sky
I sit and stare
The only thing on my mind
Are visions of you
And I wonder what your doing
If your thinking of me too
I'm sitting here so lonely
Feeling cold without you here
Wishing you could lay in my arms
And i whisper in your ear
So I could tell you how I feel
The things I want desperately to say
But fear of rejection
Seems to always get in my way
lao po i'm SORRY i dui bu qi ni forgive mi pls
Id do anything to be with you
Id catch a falling star
Id give away everything I hold dear to me
Just to be right where u are
Id stand out on the street
In the pouring rain
So you wouldn't have to feel
One single ounce of pain
Id embarrass myself in public
Just to bring a smile to your face
The memory of you
Is one that cannot be erased
Id take a hundred hits
And id die a thousand different ways
If it meant that you would be happy
For the rest of your days
Id go skydiving without a rope
Sail through the air
If I knew that when I hit the ground
You'd be the only one who'd care
Oh, how I wish you were here
i really miss u darling i really dont bear to see u cried
id smother you in kisses
Your lips agaisnt mine
For your sweet, gentle touch
I cant help but pine
Id swim across the Ocean
Cross a thousand seas
If it meant for one night
We could be alone- Just you & me
Id write you a song
That would remain close to my heart
But I guess it wouldnt matter
Because we'd still be apart
Id write 100 poems
About my feelings so real
But none could even begin 2 describe
The way you make me feel Sometimes
I forget to breathe
Just staring into your eyes
The feeling like a fire within
That never seems to die
If God said to me right now
That one of us had to die
And the choice was up to me
And we couldn't say goodbye
Id simply take his hand
And let him lead me away
So you could be happy
Living content with each day
with me living in your heart
Do you understand now
There isn't a single thing I wouldn't do
If it meant that you could see
How much I care for you my darling JASMINE

2004-10-21T20:50:00.000-07:00

The cool night breeze
Rustles through my hair
As up at the cloudy night sky
I sit and stare
The only thing on my mind
Are visions of you
And I wonder what your doing
If your thinking of me too
I'm sitting here so lonely
Feeling cold without you here
Wishing you could lay in my arms
And you whisper in my ear
So I could tell you how I feel
The things I want desperately to say
But fear of rejection
Seems to always get in my way "SORRY" "dui Bu qI"
I promise to tell u all my problem
Darling i really love u pls put your trust on me OK
Id do anything to be with you
Id catch a falling star one day
Id give away everything I hold dear to me
Just to be right where you are
Id stand out on the street
In the pouring rain
So you wouldn't have to feel
One single ounce of pain
Id embarrass myself in public
Just to bring a smile to your face
The memory of you
Is one that cannot be erased
Id take a hundred hits
And id die a thousand different ways
If it meant that you would be happy
For the rest of your days
Id go skydiving without a rope
Sail through the air
If I knew that when I hit the ground
You'd be the only one who'd care
Id smother you in kisses
Your lips agaisnt mine
For your sweet, gentle touch
I cant help but pine
Id swim across the Ocean
Cross a thousand seas
If it meant for one night
We could be alone- Just you & me
Id write you a song
That would remain close to my heart
But I guess it wouldnt matter
Because we'd still be apart
Id write 100 poems
About my feelings so real
But none could even begin 2 describe
The way you make me feel
Sometimes I forget to breathe
Just staring into your eyes
The feeling like a fire within
That never seems to die
If God said to me right now
That one of us had to die
And the choice was up to me
And we couldn't say goodbye
Id simply take his hand And let him lead me away
So you could be happy
Living content with each day
Do you understand now
There isn't a single thing I wouldn't do
If it meant that you could see
How much I care for you

2004-10-21T20:47:00.000-07:00

I see the inner pain of you
But your face still shines through
I know the inner depths And no one else has a clue
That’s why now its up to you
No one else is here onli mi and u
You’re the only one who can help
But to you its still not clear
This is my desperate cry
Please say you’ll stay
But darling if you want to leave
All I can do is pray!

2004-10-19T11:29:00.000-07:00
here jus to tell her is not i dont wan to tell her my problem is u also have your own problem like now u tell mi your exam is not going too well i dont wan to add on to your burden even now i am really sick but i can share your burden whit mi cause i think u have more burden than mi SORRY BOA PEI BU SI BU AI NI

2004-10-19T05:01:00.000-07:00
i really miss her never see her for 3 day le it like having 3 autum each day.my heart really aching how to tell her how much i miss her.only if miss is a tear i will cry till the day im dying to tell her jasmine i miss u alot "darling where are u"

2004-10-18T12:05:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning
with tears in my eyes
and you on my mind.
Heart heavy and sad,
and a chalk covered hand.
Then I remembered Playing pool till dawn,
Jukebox filled with memories of you.
I know there is no easy
to be apart even for one day,
as I listen to every crying song.
I fell asleep tonight,
With tears in my eyes
and you on my mind

2004-10-10T01:22:00.000-07:00
Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark.For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart.To weave by picking up the pieces that remain.Melodies of life--love's lost refrain.Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told? Let them ring out loud till they unfold In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine Adding up the layers of harmony And so it goes, on and on Melodies of life, To the sky beyond the flying birds--forever and beyond So far and away, see the bird as it flies by Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me? Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

If I should leave this lonely world behind Your voice will still remember our melody Now I know we'll carry on Melodies of life Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts As long as we remember.

2004-09-26T08:24:00.000-07:00

If there were a thousand words that all meant love
I could still not tell you what you mean to me
If I wrote a thousand poems filled with my love
I still do not think I could make you see
I can tell you that you are the happiness in my
life, that makes me smile
You are the one true love in my life, I have
known this for awhile
You are the one person in this world, to make
my eyes shine
You are the only man in the world that I want
to be mine
You are my future as I let go of my past
You have given me a love, that I know will last
You are all that I have ever wanted, a sweet
loving gal
You made me stop and seek love, when once I
would have ran
If I could write a book not sure what I could say
I don't know how to tell you, what makes me
feel this way
These feelings so deep inside me, engraving
a place in my heart
I just know I love you and don't ever want
to part
If I could paint a picture, the picture would be
of you
Surrounded with words of love, all done in pale
blue
If I could sing a song, the words would be filled
with my love for you
Words of happiness and trust and dreams come
true
You have shown me love as no one else has ever
done
You have become my life, my true love, my
special one
I want you always, I know this is where I belong
How can i tell you how much you mean to me?
If I look into your eyes and tell you I love you,
will you see?
If I could take a picture, I would photograph the
sea
My loves like the waves, rushing towards you, with
a passion meant to be
How can I describe a love as magical as this?
You have made me so happy with your love, your
touch, your kiss
If I told you a thousand times, those three special
words, I Love You
Would you know I meant, it would you know its
true?
You are my lover, my fantasy, my dream and my
best friend
I will be your man, your husband, your boapei
and your best friend
I will stand by you always, until the very end
Together we reached out to each other, we
took a chance
We grabbed our dream and found true romance
And Passion and a love we can share
I love you my darling and I will always be there
So maybe in the end I don't need to explain my
love for you
Maybe a tender touch, a whisper, a smile will do
Maybe then you will see, all of my love belongs
to you
I hold your hand tightly as we start our lives
together
Knowing in my heart our dreams have finally
come true.....

Love is a gift that should be treasured all the days of
our lives......

jus wanna Tell u i love u Jasmine...

thousand word on love

2004-09-26T08:15:00.000-07:00

If you judge someone, you have no time to love them...Mother Teresa
Love causes pain. Love cures pain. And love is pain...Robert Fulghum
Love is the beaty of the soul...St Augustine
Love is like a pie crust, easily made, but easily broken...Anonymous
Self sacrifice is the greatest expression of love...Anonymous
The richsest that are in the heart cannot be stolen...Abraham Lincoln
A woman's heart is an ocean of secrets...Rose Dawson in Titanic
Hearts are not had as a gift, but hearts are earned...William Butler Yeats
"Tell me whom you love and i will tell you who you are"...Hassage
The supream happiness in life is the conviction of being loved for yourself,or more correctly, being love in spite of yourself....Victor Hugo
The first duty of love-is to listen...Paul Tillich
Only in the agony of parting do we look into the depths of love...George Elliot
Be of love (a little) more careful than of anything...e.e.cumming
"to be is to love, to love you is to be.."....Louise J de beer
Love is not love that alters when it alteration finds...Shakepeare
Love is the flower you've got to let it grow...John Lennen
Love and spotlights can be cruel...Sesame Street
Love is the something eternal. The aspect may change but not the essence....Vincent Van Gogh
Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile...Elizabeth Browning
Love is hard work; and hard work somethimes hurt!...Anonymous
Love sought is good,but div'n un sought is better...William Shakepeare
"You call it madness, but i call it love"...Don Byas
Love is the answer to all final question...Anonymous
Kindness in giving creates love...Lao-Tze
One is very crazy when in love...Sigmund Freund
"Who says love never lives? Maybe we've never lived"....Anonymous
Love conquers all.....Virgil
"If I had a single flower for everytime i think about you, I could walk forever in my garden".....Claudia Ghandi
Friend often ends in love ; but love in friendship never....Charles Coleb Colten
Love, built on beauty, as soon as beauty dies....John Donne
"At the touch of love, everyone becames a poet"...Plato
Where there is love, there is life....Mahatma Gandhi
True love is like ghosts, which everybody talks about and few have seen"....La Rochefoucauld
"Death is a challenge. It tells us not to waste time.It's tell us to tell each other right now that we love each other"....Ceo F. Buscaglia
To love and to win is the best thing. To love and to lose, the next best....William M. Thackeray.
He who cannot love must learn to flatter...Goethe
"Man always want to be a woman's first love--woman like to be a man's last romance".....Oscar Wilde
When you love you should not say " God is in my hearts, "but rather, "I am in the heart of god".....Gibran Khalil Gibran
Force and love cannot live in the same house...Anonymous

Dreamer of dream

2004-09-26T08:04:00.000-07:00
You have come to me from a distant land,Dreamer of dreams, to fill my hearts desire,Sweet music flowing from your nimble hand That plays within... to light my passion's fire.A symphony of word and thought you bring.Excitement builds upon crescendo's sound,Brought forth in tones to make my light heart sing For all the beauty that, with you, I've found.A life is changed in just an instant's time,All darkness fled before that brillaint sun That shines from spoken words of softest rhyme And speaks of treasures, only just begun.This mystic meeting gives my heart a glow That few have seen and only you will know

tension

2004-09-21T09:52:00.000-07:00
The whole night i can't sleep cause i have locked my phone pin no and the sim card lock until rejected...I am relli scare that wht happen if my father know abt this....the whole night I can't sleep.....the day after haiz ya...mean todae la I went to school asking for info after some research the tension at last loosen up but still very stress. I so tire I fall asleep in geo class then my teacher mr wee keep on teasing me but i still fall asleep in his class.....after school i meet the girl who i love then the tension is really loosen up but dont know why todae alot of people so stress...after school i went home i make up my mind to tell my father about this.....The result is predicted,my father went on purple rage and giving a face look like charcoal but under some negotiation he finally turn his black face back to normal 0000OOOOOooooo at last it time to go to bed i relli need a rest after this tenseful dae

RinG of fobbiden

liaght in the dark

2004-09-19T20:49:00.000-07:00
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*I_I*

B a CaNdLe
B a LiGhT
B a TwInKlE in the dark
B a HoPe
B n InSpIRaTiOn & make a different in others' heart

nice dream
by dreammers

sick

2004-09-18T20:23:00.000-07:00
early in the morning my fellow cadet given me a morning call remind me to go for CCA.But i juz cant i have a throat that is killing me.A headache which is causing me to yied in pain then i decided to take 2 pian killer and i fall asleep till 2 then i force myself to get up from the bed cause i remember there was a person waiting for me and she sae she r hungry.i wanna buy her something to eat asking her wht she like to eat she tell me she wanna eat me keke cute gal...she care alot for me keke have her in my mind is like candle in the dark star in the night small but make a different in my life...........yes we do see each other often but she leave me me often after a few min we met but still i love her....

She is the one

2004-09-05T23:00:00.000-07:00

keke...~^.^~ but pai seh don't know what to say
date sep 5 day Sunday
time 0800(Singapore time)
year 2004
The journal start
It was a heavenly day, marshmallow white clouds dotted the sky. A gal a frenz of my, jasmine and I decided to go to the cca burach near newton which she wan to go there for nco camp asking me to accompany her i was more then willing to go as i have a cursh on her and she is asking me out i was stunt hehe...
date sep 5 day Sunday
time 0900(Singapore time)
year 2004
A face which is blushing like red apple
A feeling of heart is like a deer banging around
we reach amk i am very jing zhang don't know she will accept my gift ma...heart is beating like lighting it like hopping out any time scare and anxious is killing me but i take out my courage give it to her...
date sep 5 day Sunday
time 1000(Singapore time)
year 2004
the first touch (~^.(~^.^~)
i hold her hand keke....she nv resist "oh thank god"she have feeling whit me too
after we have find the place even though it is tiring but it is worth while
after that we go watch movie the name is "face"
it a horror movie.........keke......not i perpoursely wan she agree too in the cinima she clutched to my arm and whisper to me asking me to off my ring tone....

date sep 5 day Sunday
time 2000(Singapore time)
year 2004
A long trip home(-o-)
when we going home the mrt have some technical problem it stuck at potong paseh and we walk home or rather to my house we chit chat though the night....and our virginity of kisses to her and me r present to each other keke... my first kiss to her (:(^.^):)

a pest a irritating pest

2004-05-09T16:34:00.000-07:00
After school i dragging my leg it seen so heavy.........

i wonder why i'm afraid to go home "why why that my house why i am afraid" this wht racing thought my vain now and then why cause of a gal a irritating gal or rather a gal who i love a gal who have make me scacrified my love,my time,my tear for her..........we know each other though a internet game we love each other very much we play,we eat we even wanna go toilet at the same time.....of course different toilet la kekeX.....we have a wonderful time together and she my first love and a new chapter of my story begin a love story a sad sad story of mine.As is sae not every ending is like fairt tale not every ending end whit happy ever after haiz....

the problem started when i am attending lesson at school from monday to thurday going home abt 4.30...she jus dont wan to let me explain why

i know i in the wrong cause i have no time to pei ta but i not mean to cause of her i have drop alot of thing even my result is dropping.
i dosent care all this but countinue to console her cheer her up toe ta kai xin but she dont ling qin everytime come to my house giving me a face a black face...

this action countinue for mounth and mounth at last i have reach the limit i snap and thorw my temper on the door but not her i dont care her from the day to the night....

before she wanna apologise to me i have decide to apologise to her.we patch again umm... maybe is i spoilt her le ba.....after patch she continue whit her ap(attitube problem)
and so we break again a few week later but my mother patch us back.....i accept i give her one more chance to prove but i am very confuse of the relationship haiz...finnally i decide not to take the pain anymore or rather i am escaping form the truth ba....

she still keep on pester me even we break le she invade into my privacy she look at my phone and take a gal no (A friend onli)her name is yu fang....i dont know until yu fang call me up

3 dae later she tuant over night over my house and invade into my privacy again i am really fire up i rush out of my house.whitout my parent permit i loitering around serangoon and amk then i reach my tang ke jia at toa pha yoa